Mentalcloud9

Realizing that it really is all about you

For years, we’ve walked around everyday living life dealing with what traumas and troubles this world hands us, not realizing the huge impact it has on us not just physically but more important mentally. We are forced to deal with different traumas and we each find different coping mechanisms to deal with them. Not knowing the long term affect it leaves not only for us to deal with but for those around us as well.

I was one of those women who grew up in a life filled with all types of traumas, ones that I thought that I had discreetly tucked away, never to be drudged up again. Little did I know, what I was hiding on the inside was beginning to seep through on the outside. With each trauma, with each disappointment, I slowly became someone that even I did not recognize. With each relationship in my life, it became more and more apparent that I was doing everything I could to keep pushing those near me away and slowly isolating myself from those who loved me most.

I came to a point where I knew that I needed to change. I just needed a starting point. I realize that every person that you meet comes into your life for a reason. Each one to teach and bring you something new. I was diagnosed with BPD and began to let that define me. By learning more about my disorder and disciplining my mind through trial and error, I was able to control and manage my disorder. Every day is still a new learning experience, and with it new ways to cope. With discipline and determination, you can turn what was meant to stigmatize you into something to be admired for.

I can also help you find your true freedom. It all starts with you and taking care of and placing your mental health first. As we continue to take this journey together in my life, I would like to share it with you to give you hope and know that if you are willing to put in the work, it pays off. Discipiine and determination go a long way. Nothing is impossible. Your only competition is you.