We all have moments of reflection in our journey, where we take a step back and begin to evaluate our lives and think about where we are and where we could be. We think about all the bad choices we made that led us to this point in our lives. We begin to think about all the things that we could have done differently. This was me. I thought like this all the time. Always wondering what could have been. Sometimes so deeply, that I became detached from reality. I was missing the real lesson, the big picture, the meaning of it all. Understanding that life is what we choose to make it. We all have a different personal journey in life. That’s why it is called personal, because your journey is unlike any other. You are unique in your story
Until you begin to understand that you have been given this journey to share with others and to be an inspiration to those around you, you truly can’t begin to live. When you find your purpose, the reason for your existence, you not only find freedom and growth, but you can help those around you to grow as well. We are all connected to one another in some way. Given not the same situation, but living with similar problems. There are so many others out there who are experiencing the same trials and tribulation. Your story can be someone else’s salvation. Even if it only changes just one life, then that is one person who’s journey can be better because you took the time to share your story.
When I decided to work on my mental state and get on this journey to mental wellness, I was so pumped and excited about everything that was to come. I knew that this was going to bring out a new side of me. Except something was different this time. I have had many moments of my life where I found new things exciting, only to be disinterested a while later. Especially with borderline personality disorder, this was always challenging for me, as it is a trait of BPD. This time, I knew deep down that I was tired of living the way I was living. Walking around as if I was underwater. Not able to freely breathe, feeling like everything around me was not clear and feeling disorientated. I lived my life like this for a long time.
This time around something in me realized that I needed to truly make a change. Not temporarily but permanently. I perceived that there is more to life than what I had made it to be, I knew that this life has to have more for me. I understood that if I truly wanted to live a different life, that I had to do things differently this time. I knew I was going to have to work harder this time. I knew that this battle with my own mind was going to be an uphill battle. I also knew that I was capable of going through very difficult situations and getting through it. I had made it through very tough situations and was still here. I knew that finding my mental freedom was going to unlock a whole new side of me that even I had never seen before. I just had to stay determined this time. And I have.
I have had a complete mind shift. Beginning to see my worth and my full capabilities, let’s me have more confidence to grow and understand that I am capable of anything. That as long as I find time to always draw strength and peace from God and continue to work on myself, I will continue to discover a whole new me. A side of me that is the key to my success. Our minds are a muscle that only needs to be trained and expanded. Once you learn to unlock this side of yourself, there is nothing holding you back from being the best that you can be. Find your place to draw from spiritually. Whatever it may be. Use it as a place of strength and restoration. Know that life is one big lesson. Finding and being the best you is what life is all about. Making changes that will break generational curses and leaving behind a legacy worth leaving to our families. You are capable of anything. You must be able to take full control of your minds and realize that you are your own worst enemy when it comes to change. When you become imprisoned in your own mind, it can be suffocating. Once you learn to unlock your mind and turn on that beast mode inside of you, only then will you be ready to face the world and take on everything it throws at you and do it with confidence.