One common factor
As humans, we have all been created unique and different. We each have different hopes, dreams, aspirations, and goals in life. We have all been wonderfully made to travel different journeys. Yet, one common factor keeps many of us from moving forward. One fear that causes us to waiver in our steps. Fear of the unknown.
Being diagnosed with borderline personality disorder gave me a better understanding of my fears and insecurities. I discovered that one of my biggest fears was not knowing or not having control of what could happen in the future. This deliberately contributed to my fear of abandonment. Constantly worrying about people leaving. Fear of the unknown.
We all suffer from different uncertainties in life. The fear of not knowing what will happen tomorrow can definitely bring on anxiety, depression, and all other types of mental and physical problems. It can blind us from enjoying what is right in front of us in the present.
I lived most of my life in tomorrow. My most significant setback was letting my mind stay trapped, worrying about the future or being stuck in the past. I never allowed myself to deal with the present. Learning to fully enjoy what was around me at the moment. How could I get myself out of this loop of thought? How can I let go of trying to control everything?
Maybe my first lesson was learning that I didn’t have any control to begin with. There were so many elements in life that no matter how hard I planned or prepared, there were many things in life that I could not prepare for. I had to learn to take them as they came. To roll with the punches. But how? I couldn’t do this on my own strength.
You are not alone
The most significant discovery I made is that you don’t have to. You can find a spiritual source to draw from that gives you the hope to keep moving forward. I once was filled with many fears and insecurities that caused physical and mental suffering. I was so lost and drained. I had nowhere to pull strength from.
I truly am a believer in faith. I believe that God works in mysterious ways. There were so many lessons He was teaching me that I never even saw coming. At 44 years old, I realized that actual change begins with faith. Not just believing but taking steps to put my faith into action.
These last two years have been challenging but truly a blessing. Learning something new is not always fun. But when you see yourself taking steps forward on your path, you look back and see your accomplishments, which motivates you to keep going. Not worrying about what will happen tomorrow and learning not to look back at the past. I needed to learn to stay in the present.
My focus began by communicating with my source. God became my source. I call him God, and you may call him something different, but looking to your higher power gives you a place to draw new strength daily. I am beyond blessed to have experienced grace. To be blessed with more than I deserve. Although before, I didn’t always feel this way.
Everyone needs to have a place to pull strength from when you are too weary or fearful of moving forward. When you find your spiritual source, make it your place of refuge. A place where you can rest and power up for the subsequent trial or challenge that life presents you.
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You realize you have less to fear when your tomorrow lies in the hands of the One who knows tomorrow better than anyone. Living in the present keeps you grounded. When I find myself giving up or feeling frustrated, I go back to my place of security, to the One who can calm my fears and anxieties.
I have found a place of peace within me that helps keep me on the right track. Sometimes it’s through the voice of others that God speaks to me. Sometimes it’s through the environment or a soft whisper. Either way, it gives me the push I need to keep going every day and remember to live in the now and enjoy it to the fullest.
You can also find peace and change. Begin your day with gratitude. Being thankful for the little things. This will make everything else around you seem less frightening. Knowing that you are not alone. We walk this journey with God beside us. Whether we see Him or not, He is there to provide guidance. You just have to seek, and you will find.