We all need to take breaks in life. We need them when life gets too busy, or we are too tired from working. We see breaks as a way to relax and as a way to wind down. But sometimes, we are given unexpected breaks in life that are meant not to relax but to work. To work on ourselves.
Many times life throws curveballs at us. We go through a breakup or lose a job, family member, or friend. In these times, we find ourselves needing some space and taking a break from life. This is where perception really takes priority. How do we deal with these situations? What is life trying to teach me?
We must begin to look at life through different lenses. Sometimes, breaks in life come as a way to teach us something new. To allow us to work on ourselves and to grow from our experiences. We are given breaks to self-evaluate the important priorities in life and how we can change our situations to make them better the next time.
When going through a separation, breakup, or divorce, I always tended to look at the other person and quickly point the finger. After each failed relationship or situation, I had every excuse possible to not face the tough issues I needed to deal with.
I had failed to see that there was a common denominator in all of it. ME. I had to take accountability for my mistakes and how I was contributing to the problem. I had many breaks in my life, but this was somehow different.
This time I had to sit down and truly look deeply at myself. As hard as it was, this was the break that changed my life. I realized that I had flaws and weaknesses that I needed to address to change the decisions I had been making.
This is when I realized that something was meant to be different this time. I needed to let this break, break me. I needed to allow life to do what it needed to do. To rearrange what once had been misplaced. I found myself always running to someone to feel fixed.
Finding out that I was dealing with anxiety, depression, and borderline personality disorder put me in a very uncomfortable yet eye-opening place. I had so many insecurities and traumas that I had pushed to the back of my mind to avoid dealing with them.
This caused me to go through one of the most hurtful times in my life. I suffered a loss in a way I had never felt before. My heart broke in ways I had never imagined for the first time, and I didn’t know where to find the healing I needed to move forward from this pain.
Although my true healing comes from God, the process began with myself. God will help me with the healing, but I had to begin by changing myself and taking this new break to truly find myself and figure out what I wanted in my life.
I am still going through this journey, trying to find my way. Every day is a new experience, a new chapter in the pages of my storybook. I never know what tomorrow will bring because things can change on the flip of a dime, and I am well aware of this.
Therefore, I do my best to live life one day at a time. I have also learned to really evaluate every break I am given in my life. I try to see things from a whole different perspective than before.
I am now appreciative of how and who I am. I have learned to love myself, knowing there will never be another me in this world. I sit in the comfort of knowing my strengths and all I have to offer this world. I choose to see myself as a diamond in the rough.
It is never too late to shine. Life gives at different times and stages. My time to shine will come when life sees fit, and when I do, I will use my light to help those who have lost their spark regain their shine. That is the reason we are given the things we are handed. To help those who have lost their way. Those who are just looking for the right kind of break…
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