MentalCloud9
April 7, 2021
Awakening
Discovery I have been on my own journey for the last two years of rediscovering myself, finding happiness within myself, and really valuing and appreciating my worth and my talents. I am working through understanding my past traumas and how these events led me to dealing with depression, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder. The truth …
Leveling Up In The Pit
Perspective Everyone has their own journey and path to walk on. Sometimes during that journey, some of us experience what we call “rock bottom” or our “lowest possible level”. Sadly, some of us go through this phase more than once. Many times this makes us feel like failures and as though we are not able …
My Invisible Opponent
Raw emotion There is undeniably no scarier feeling in a relationship than having to be vulnerable. When you are someone who has a borderline personality disorder, this becomes almost a nightmare. We already tend to feel things much more extreme than others. Now, having to open me up all over again emotionally can be almost …
These walls I built
Trapped It’s been over one year since I realized that I have been dealing with mental disorders that I decided I needed to change and find a solution to. I always thought that building anything takes a lot more time and patience than breaking something down. But when it came to the walls I had …
Between The Two Of Us (SSSHHH!! It’s a secret….)
Emotions(friend or foe?) Our lives are surrounded by so many different kinds of relationships. We all have a need for human connection in some way or another. We all want to have that special someone in our lives. Relationships that help us flourish and become better. For those living with borderline personality disorder, this becomes …
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Yayyy Me!!
Learning to celebrate! I realize that dealing with any type of mental illness can be draining and tiring in so many ways. Physically, mentally and emotionally. I tend to be hard on myself when I find myself repeating certain behaviors. Which in turn makes me feel more depressed and anxious. One thing that I often …
X Marks The Spot
Unlocking Treasure Being diagnosed with a mental disorder was definitely a very eye-opening experience for me (Let’s not mention emotionally). Getting to know exactly what I am dealing with. Finding ways to free my mind or be able to find ways to manage these disorders successfully, gave me the drive to set off on this …
On the other side of fear
Can I do this? I can clearly remember the feeling of fear that came over me that night. Although I had spent weeks preparing for this. The panic and anxiety caused a big knot in my stomach that made me want to vomit. I had even taken a public speaking class, just to prepare for …
Supporting my disorder
Call me “crazy” Being diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, anxiety and depression can be scary for many people. I was somewhat relieved, as it gave me a starting point as to why I was acting the way I was. At the same time, it made me feel as though there was something really wrong with …
Perfectly Split
“I hate you, don’t leave me!” I always knew that in any type of relationship, it is normal to experience all types of emotions as situations change. I observed this behavior in relationships of those around me. I just never realized that mine was a little more out of control than most. Maybe a little …
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