MentalCloud9
April 7, 2021
BPD-Brings Painful Demons
Fear of abandonment? Self-image issues? Difficulty managing emotions? A pattern of unstable relationships? Impulsive decisions based on your feelings? These are just some of the demons that come with a borderline personality disorder. These are demons that I battled for most of my life from an early age. I had allowed my mind to find…
“The demons we fight within”
We are all broken to some extent. Some more than others. But we all have demons and traumas to fight in this life. The goal is to overcome them and be a light to those who are in darkness. These are my first pictures of a series I have titled “The demons we fight within.”…
The uncertainty
The fear of the unknown… One of humanity’s worse fears. We always want to know what is going on around us and to us. When we are left not knowing, it leaves us vulnerable. It leaves our minds wondering. It opens up the mind to begin to create its own scenarios and outcomes. If we…
Hamster Wheel Mentality
Sleepless nights, laying there with thoughts racing over and over. Thinking of every scenario and every reason why, where, how, and what. I clearly remember these nights and the long exhausting days of my Hamster wheel mentality. Being that I suffered from depression, anxiety, and BPD, I understood this frame of mind all too well.…
The Tightrope Walk Of Life
I remember being a kid and going to visit the circus. I was so excited to see all the amazing and daring acts that made going to the circus such a fun experience. One of the acts that I loved to watch was the tightrope walkers. Being able to balance themselves on such a small,…
Solitude in an uninhabited place
Peace and quiet. Everybody needs this at some point. Some just don’t realize how important and how crucial this can be. Especially when you are dealing with mental health. Especially someone like me. Being in a relationship when you suffer from mental health can be extremely challenging. Learning and finding yourself within a relationship can…
Mind Unafraid
I found myself in a familiar place again. The overwhelming feeling of anxiety, the cold sweats, the uneasiness of not knowing. I had been here before. Many times. Except for this time, things were different. I was different. Having a borderline personality disorder can be very difficult to control. Not being able to regulate my…
Breaking within my break
We all need to take breaks in life. We need them when life gets too busy, or we are too tired from working. We see breaks as a way to relax and as a way to wind down. But sometimes, we are given unexpected breaks in life that are meant not to relax but to…
No Shame In My Game
For most of my life, I walked around with the “shame” many people carry. The shame of my disorder, weaknesses, insecurities, and faults. I hid this so well from others for so long. Only to become unraveled when I developed a relationship with a significant other. Back then, I could not understand why I felt…
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